Day 7 of 365-2016

I don’t know what to think and what to do. He took a day off from vending and have not gained for more than 20 days now. I know he have few money left now and what made me sad is he bet in cockfighting. I always told him to stop it as he lost a lot of money because of that. But he wont listen. And he doesn’t want me to meddle with his affairs. I have a lot of dreams and I want to invest into more businesses but I cannot trust him anymore. He have done it to me in the past where he told me that he would invest the money into something but he was actually spending it in cockfighting. We have just graduated from a renewal community and I thought things would change his mind. But unfortunately, he even told me, he saw one of the new member went there. I don’t want to nag him about it again and again because I am already tired. He never listen to me. He never will… I am not sure if he considers me as his wife.

Later in bed, we talked about it. He told me that he promised that after his parents will go home, we will start anew. He will stop from cockfighting and even will get drunk ┬áduring fiestas and Christmas or New Year only. I am not sure if it’s a bad thing to not trust him anymore. As for now, all I know is he should gain back my trust to him. I will still hold on to his promise and after his parents are back to their home, I will hold on to his promise that we will start anew.

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